The past two weeks, and more so, the past four days I have spent 90% of my waking hours filling my face. I have a half filled drinking glass full of chocolate chips beside me right now.
In a way, I understand I am eating out of fear. But. Even though I can feel myself getting bigger, I cannot seem to care about it. I can;t seem to care that in January and early Feb I lost 7 lbs with the treadmill and extra water.
Maybe subconsciously I am thinking that I have to eat it ll now, before I can't.
home gyms are nice, but only if you are willing to actually use them, and right now, I have no desire to work out. Eating chips and chocolate keeps my mind off my problems. I will worry about the weight gain on Tuesday!