It's official:

I'm a mom.

It's true. I can tell this in two ways.

Number one, I have stretch marks all over. And I mean all over if you get my drift.

The second reason is that I am more nervous today for Rainbow Man's dental appointment than I have ever been fore my own.

And thats saying a lot.

Every time I look at the clock I have to consciously slow my breathing to prevent yet another panic attack from brewing.

My heart has been racing all day long, what with the whole Stuperman Issue and now, EEK. an hour and a quarter till RM goes in.

I swear to god right now I can feel myself breathing, I know I am breathing but it feels like I am suffocating! I need to step back for a minute before I finish this post!

OK I took the kids for a walk around the block. Fresh air, nice breeze, helps to clear my mind. Who am I trying to kid here?

I need to end this and go do something that will keep my mind busy. Something so that I calm down. Something that will let me have hope that I can be strong enough not to fall to pieces myself when if he falls to pieces.